Let's talk about Love...
There is less than 2 months until the wedding and I am starting to feel some serious excitement. I think about how fun it will be to be married to RJ. I have known RJ since I was 14 years old, we met in high school (well I was in high school). I would love to tell you how perfect it all was and how it was this amazing fairytale but the truth is it wasn't. It was messy and sinful and there are a lot of things I regret but It's amazing how God still uses our sin for His purpose. I was not a Christian when we first met and I was also really young so we were both very naive and stupid to say the least.
God has brought us a really long way since then, He has shown us some amazing grace through our very messy relationship. I believe it is only by Gods grace that we are still together (long story) and I'm so grateful for that. Although things are not perfect I still feel incredibly blessed to have RJ in my life.
Believe it or not I would call myself a hopeless romantic, I believe in the fairytale, I believe in head over heels love! I think It's really sad when couples don't "love" each other or when I see people settle. I see a lot of girls who are in such bad relationships with these guys who don't really like them. These guys talk about other girls, flirt with other girls, and don't really want to spend time with their girlfriend. Yet the girl still chooses to follow after this guy! Why?
That was me! It took me a really long time and a lot of tears to be able to let go of RJ. And it turned out so much better when I did! Were both different people, God took that broken relationship and worked in both of our hearts so we could be together again. But why did it take me so long to get there?
For me it was a lack of trust in God, I was afraid of what would happen when we did break up. I had been with RJ for so long that I didn't know life a part from him. I know for some girls It's because they have been alone for so long that they want to be with someone so they settle for the first guy that comes there way. I want to encourage you not to settle for anything short of someone who absolutely love's you. When you experience that kind of love you don't want anything less! It's out there girls, you just need to hold out until it comes to you.
Don't get me wrong, I by no means think any relationship is perfect or that there is a "perfect" guy! I don't believe in the guy from the Notebook or any other girl movie. But I do believe in the kind of guy who loves the Lord, I believe in the guy who loves me and is willing to die for me. I believe in the guy who prays for me, who thinks about me when I'm not there. The kind of guy who talks about me, who visits me at work, who plans a future for me, and who will protect me. My best friend is my prince charming, and I found him!
Every relationship is work, ill say it again, every relationship is work! There are days where I want to throw in the towel and where I wish I could run away but I love RJ. I want to encourage you that there is hope! I use to think that we had to have the perfect love story otherwise we would suck as a couple (haha) but now I know that God can use any broken relationship for His glory. We don't have a perfect story but we do have a perfect God. So don't give up, God has the perfect guy out there for you.